Rajaswami

I know it's been a while since I last updated my journal but much has changed since then. First is that I have a new inspiration to draw! I completed my first deviation in a while and this one is a big milestone for me. It's the first fully colored digital painting that I have done. Many hours were spent over it, mostly because I procrastinate and don't push myself as fully as I should, but it was completed faster than what I originally predicted.
     
Because of my recently completed work I have been commissioned to paint a fully colored picture for a coworker. This is something entirely new for me for I have never used my talents for others. I mostly paint or draw what I want, never what someone wants me to. But I feel this may open up a new avenue for me and to broaden my skill. Whether or not this will lead me into commissioning work from other deviants is yet to be determined but as for now I will focus on this one picture.

I have asked to do some work for a friend of mine for his new album set to come out (TBA). I'm hoping that not only will this increase my level of skill but more importantly to get my name out there. I will see what the future holds for me when it comes.

I've lost my muse that inspires me to draw and make art. I don't know how or when it happened but all I do know is that my recent contributions to my deviant art account have been nothing or at the most scraps that I intend to do more with but I never did. I feel no urge to draw, no push to finish my work, no drive to make anything.

What happened? It's not like my life has had some sort of drastic change in the recent months that has caused me to lose it. If anything my life has been proceeding like it has been for the past 6 months. This is quite annoying too as I look at other artists work and the accomplishments that they have made. Makes me feel like I should be doing more, but no, I don't do anything. I just sit around dreaming of the next picture I want to draw but make no actual effort in completing that dream.

I guess I lost it from sheer boredom and the mediocrity in my life. Going to work full time and school part time has left me in a valley right now with mountains all around me to climb. But as soon as I find my hiking shoes I'm going to climb those hills and see whats on the other side. In other words, as soon as I get my muse back I'm going to start drawing again and see what I can make.

A beginning artist to the whole Deviant art world. Just getting into the social network and sharing of art and ideas. There's a lot of talent out there, some that I can learn so much from and try to use in my own works. Jealous of some who have excelling talent that bring mine to shame. But I do not get discouraged. This give me a goal to work towards. To be as good they are or better!

I love the traditional art style that has lost grounds, I'm seeing, to more digital forms and photography. These styles have nothing wrong within them, I love a lot of digital art work and photography. But there's something to the look and feel of paper and pencil, brush and canvas. I mostly look at human or people art. Not so much landscapes or animals.

If there are those that are talented in the traditional sense of drawing or painting, please let me know. I would love to see your work.